Hesther: I mean he's in pain, Martin. He's been in pain for most of his life. That much, at least, you know.
Dysart: Possibly.
Hesther: Possibly?!... That cut-off figure you just described must have been in pain for years.
Dysart: (doggedly) Possibly.
Hesther: And you can take it away.
Dysart: Still - possibly.
Hesther: Then that's surely enough. That simply has to be enough for you, surely?
Dysart: No!
Hesther: Why not?
Dysart: Because it's his.
Hesther: I don't understand.
Dysart: His pain. His own. He made it.
Dysart: Possibly.
Hesther: Possibly?!... That cut-off figure you just described must have been in pain for years.
Dysart: (doggedly) Possibly.
Hesther: And you can take it away.
Dysart: Still - possibly.
Hesther: Then that's surely enough. That simply has to be enough for you, surely?
Dysart: No!
Hesther: Why not?
Dysart: Because it's his.
Hesther: I don't understand.
Dysart: His pain. His own. He made it.
(a pause, then earnestly)
Look... to go through life and call it yours - your life - you first have to get your own pain.
Pain that's unique to you.
You can't just dip into the common bin and say 'That's enough!'... He's done that.
All right, he's sick. He's full of misery and fear.
He was dangerous, and could be again, though I doubt it.
But that boy has known a passion more ferocious than I have felt in any second of my life, and let me tell you something: I envy it.
Hesther: You can't.
Dysart: (vehemently) Don't you see? That's the Accusation!
Hesther: You can't.
Dysart: (vehemently) Don't you see? That's the Accusation!
That's what his stare has been saying to me all this time. 'At least I galloped! When did you?'
... (simply) I'm jealous, Hesther. Jealous of Alan Strang.
Equus ~ Peter Shaffer